I got the job!

Surrounded by intelligent people… intoxicating! I loved going to
work where I learned so much more than just medical protocol.
I truly learned about the human side, feeling honored to be present for the
most important moments in peoples lives. Not all situations were the same, I often wondered who these little people would become, how could they influence the world.

I never became desensitized to the anguish of losing a baby. That was part of the job.
There were days I went home with a feeling of utter
grief, I wept for parents and women who lost their children. I
learned that no matter your education, income, or who we might think we
are…human suffering knows no boundaries .

I had a job, got divorced, met a man, and found out who I really was.
What I had believed was true about myself was much different than the reality.
A far cry from the 257 pound peanut butter sandwich
making stay at home mom I had been a mere 12 months before.

I was a fraud, a fat girl in my head, looking like I had never
had an issue with weight. The thinnest I have been in my adult life!
Too the nurses of size I was the skinny girl?  But wait
no, I’m one of you!  But in this reality I was not. I had changed and no one
knew my secret.

There is a reason why hospitals are the backdrop for daytime television. Within
those walls everyone is dressed the same; just beneath those scrubs
lies a social structure resembling an ancient city. Where there are kings,
minions, the über educated, the socially retarded, the bad, and yes the good all mixed
together performing feats of greatness.

Receiving more attention from the male staff, than any one girl should
have, I had became the talk of this ancient city.  Doctors wanted to
know what I did.  Where I came from? This was mind boggling to me.
How could it be only a year ago I would be considered a health risk,
obese, high blood pressure, a surgical risk, did I mention obese by
these same men? Yet, because I shed my fat suit I had become the
new popular “it girl” in there society.
There was one man in particular who
found me fascinating; even though we had never actually met. He was considered by his colleagues and minions alike to be the Grand Puba of this strange new world. My life’s course was about to be altered!


Peach out bitches
~Reigan Riley